This is just one of those times where I need to blah blah blah. I'm having one of the odd phases of life right now. Everything seems to be crashing around me. Money is so bad it's not even funny. I have several animal family members and one of them almost died this week and now I am losing a mass amount of sleep nursing her back to health by syringe feeding her every few hours. My loving husband is trying so hard to get a job but my frustration with the whole situation has just bubbled over. At the same time there is this radiating inner calm that bursts forth when I feel I'm at the point of breaking and envelopes me and thrashes away those fears and self doubts. I feel like my physical life is so crazy and out of control but spiritually never been stronger. I am now truly starting to embrase my abilities and reaching for my purpose. It's beautiful and humbling. For someone that is extremely uncomfortable with compliments and never ready to acknowledge my pros, I am finding a wise wonderful me. I feel guilty and boastful for printing that let alone thinking it but damn it I deserve it.
I feel a little crazy some times because there are so many parts of myself tangling around to express themselves. The Warrior who takes no shit from anyone with inner and outter powers that she doesn't even realize yet. The Mother Protector that craves to help those in need. She loves endlessly and openly. The Timid Mouse that has dreams and urges but is so unsure to take those steps. And of course the Wild Child who refuses to grow up and still believes in fairies. Let me tell you it is a blast juggling these ladies. lol. Is it just me. Sometimes I feel just a few fries short of a happy meal. It's odd to feel the differences inside and then to also slightly remember your past selves. But life sure is interesting. Hopefully my children will grow to except all of themselves and I can honor and support them to know that the dragons and fairies are always there if you look hard enough and lay with the earth and feel them every once in awhile. Gee thanks I feel better.